Where Have I Been?

Criusing the blogs from my brother and sister, I ran across my own long forgotten blog. I recently had a discussion with a co-worker about how I have become so unbalanced. I have had vivid dreams, and no desire to record or interpret them. I haven't meditated in the middle of a pile of sage, or prayed to the four directions in a few months. I've wandered from my Native studies and the wonderful Sioux language books provided by my loving, giving brother Stan. Perhaps moving back into town has affected this change, I don't know, but I am aware of the imbalance and ready to correct it. So, fellow bloggers, I intend to reactivate my blog.
My chronological order may be amiss as I try to recap missing months. Or, I may decide to simply start from this point on....not sure yet.
As I was reading Stan's blog, the Buddist advice meant for himself was right there for me when I needed it. As I was swirling around in ungrounded chaos, becoming more and more negative, falling into the grumbling abyss of permanently disgruntled co-workers and becoming increasingly emotionally exhausted, I wandered onto Stan's blog, and there it was, simple, naked, obvious, logical truth. "The Buddhist approach to developing this great and limitless joy is to train (as in meditation) in being present, staying with the present moment - being with ourselves, our thoughts, our emotions - without judgement - without always needing to say yes or no, for or against."
How could I have forgotten the basics ? Whenever faced with a challenge, or question that I don't know the answer to, I feel pressure to come up with the "right" answer. The "right" answer is a very subjective thing. We don't come up with it, it already exists. While we are spending our time trying to find it, we push it farther away. Our judgements cloud the obvious. I believe we need to feel it, not think it.